Nothingness

Yesterday was my happiest day for such a long time..
If only everyday could be like that..
If only my friends would be half of you..
Perhaps I'll be happy..

But today has proven me great disappointment..
All my friends seem so far..
Or perhaps.. never mind..
I'm not suppose to speak what my mind wants to..
Perhaps my mind's evil..
So I'll just bottle up..
And when I can't take it again..
I'll just do what I always do..
No one will ever understand the pain..
The pain that I'm struggling out of..
No one will even try to understand..
Everyone just wants me to be a happy, cheerful kid..
So they won't have to worry about me..
Fine, I will..
Put On A Mask

A quote says:
'I value the friend who for me finds time on the calender.
But I cherish the friend who for me does not consult the calender.'

Amazingly, I don't even have a friend who finds time for me on the calender.
For the past few days, no one spoke..
No one chatted..
No one truely care..
The loneliness that creeps in..
Seems so familiar..
It's just like before..
Where life is just so..
Friendless..

If only time would just stop yesterday..
When my head was on your shoulder..
All became calm and peaceful..
And all my troubles just left me..
But they came back..
When you left..

Just wanted you to be here..
When I truely needed you..
But somehow..
I don't feel like making you sad..
Afterall, you have many things to be sad about..
I just don't want to bring them up..
So I try to make you happy..
Just like what I do to everyone..

The world's a stage..
And I'm in a masquerade ~