Unhappiness..
It just can't go away, can it?
You don't want it to go away too..
You hate me to the core..
You make me hate myself..

That very night..
I stared at the window..
I cried..
I thought of jumping off..
And how it would have ended the misery..
I thought of how I could drink soap..
And how bitter it would have tasted..
I thought of using a needle to poke through my wrist..
And I did it..
It hurt..
But not as much as your words..
How you hated me all this while..
How I am not worth to be your daughter..

That very night..
I spoke to God..
I said I hate Him..
And how much I didn't want to..
I asked Him to take me away..
Even if I had to be in Hell..
I cried..
And I thought of how no one would be there to listen..

The whole night was a struggle..
But the struggle ended..
There will be no more of the happy me..
The dark side took over..
And I hope you are happy..