I can't take it anymore..
At least that's what I tell myself when I'm alone..
I'm not as strong as I seem afterall..
I'm just a weakling inside..
Deep within..
I'm just so scared..
Scared of everything going around me..
Scared of what's happening next..
Scared of every reaction people might have..
The fear creeping in..
It's just so hard to face it alone..
I want to be able to cry to someone..
I want to be like every other person..
To be able to cry when sad..
And not to hold them back and cry when I'm alone..
To cry when I'm alone in the dark..

Why do I have to keep smiling when I don't feel like..
Why can't I express my emotions to others..
Why must others only see my smile..
Why can't I face others with the true feelings I have within..
Why can't I feel like crying for no reason..
I just want to be cared once..
Why must I let people feel that I'm all right on my own..
Why do people feel that way..
I'm a human too..
I need care..
I need someone to listen to my troubles..
I need someone to pour my heart to..

I guess the inner me hasn't change abit..
But I'll surpress it..
For everyone's sake..