Why do things get so harsh in just one night?
Why do I have to start pouring things out?

I tried to hold back my tears today as we spoke..
You wanted me to share..
I'm not willing..
It's not that I don't trust..
I just find it that no one would understand..
You're not experiencing what I am experiencing..
How would you understand?
You wanted to help..
But how?
Encourage?
How long will your encouragement last?
A few hours?

I feel so lost and confused..
How can I enjoy my life at this state?
Everything crushing down..
How?

The whole time you were talking..
I told myself..
Stay strong..
Thoughts rushing around my mind..
But the thought of staying strong made me firm..
I knew I had to control..
But still..
I failed..
My head almost exploded..

Still..
After you wanting me to share..
I'm still stuck..
Should I give up?
Or should I continue?
How do I start anew?