What kind of life is this?
Why are there so many downs that I face?
Why is it so complicated?

How many rejection do I have to face?
Why can't my life be just a little bit simpler?

I'm so tired making decisions..
Each decision having to fear what's the consequence..
Each time with all to bear..
I feel so tired..

Is it possible for a moment I just stay free?
Wonder when it will be..

I feel like I'm dying..
Physically and mentally..
I feel that body lacks of water..
It's not working right somehow..
My mind is preventing me from resting at night..
No matter how tired I am..
Each time I closes my eyes..
Thoughts just keep running..

Each time I think of him..
Wondering if I could really let him go..
Tears just flow..
Can I really let him go?
I know I have to..
If I don't..
Well..
No point clinging on..

I just need to sit somewhere..
With wind blowing..
And I could just clear my mind..
With someone sitting beside me..
Just being there for me..
As I slowly fall asleep..

But rarely do fantasies become reality..
Rarely do I have moments where I could smile at..
Happiness doesn't last..
I didn't see all that coming..
I couldn't take the blow..
But I kept it inside..
I had to learn to bury those tears deep within..
And replace them with a smile..
They think it's over..
But it's still a struggle for me..