Really emotional these few days.
Why? I do not know.
There's something I realise though.
I'm still afraid to cry in front of people.
Or probably I'm just too used to cry alone in the dark.
I wonder how will my birthday be this year.
I'd be happy if I get enrolled.
But what if I don't?
How will I react?
How will I face the rest of my birthdays?
I'm really scared.
Who can I tell?
Shivering in fears, having to calm myself down.
Why is every song played in my ear sound so depressing?
I feel so alone once again.
Such horrible feelings.
After all, I still have tears to cry.
I want to be strong, why can't I?
Such a failure, a disappointment.