A burden, too heavy

So dead...
I cried, and am still crying..
I'm starting to see more of how this world is treating me.
Thanks to everyone that I know.
Every single one.

I hate this world.
The world hates me.

My mum hates me.
And I hate her.

I'm a burden.
I wish I'm gone.

I'm a stupid.
I wish I'm not.

I'm nothing.
I'll always be.

Stop hurting me, passerbys of my life.
I wish to thank you all.
For hurting me.
You might think you haven't.
But you're not me.

And no one will understand.
But you'll say God does.
And I'd say He gave up on me.

I don't want to cast my burdens to anyone.
I'll cast them on myself.
I know they are heavy.
But it's useless sharing them.

Someday.. just someday...
I'll break down..
and no one will know..
'cause I'll make sure no one does..
and I'll make sure no one will understand me..
I'm just too difficult..
I'm not just anyone...