I don't understand
Why must I keep smiling when deep within I'm hurt?
I don't even know if I'm living who I am..
or I'm just living up to everyone's expectations..
I'm the happy cheerful kid that everyone sees..
but I'm not..
I just can't be one..

Everyone will say that if you have problem pour it out.
Yet they expect to see me smile all the time.
Doesn't it mean that I have to bottle up my troubles?
I don't understand..
Not anymore..
How am I suppose to live?
It's always the same plastic smile that I put on..
when can it end?
Everyday, crying in my own bedroom alone..
I just feel like dying..
It hurts..