Imperfection

You just don't understand me.
You just won't trust me.
I was happy and you ruined it.
You always do.
I don't know why you did it.
Fine.
I'm just a fucking worthless, stupid, idiot, retarded, pessimistic, uncurable, irritating, dislikable, useless, dumb, negaholic, troublemaker, emo, hated, basturd, HELLUVA PIECE OF JUNK!
Whatever I do is shit.
I give no damn anymore.
Fine.
I'll go away. Jump into hell.
Plunge into eternal torment.
Kill me then.
Just take a knife stab me.
Or, poison me in my food.
Or, push me over the ledge.
Whatever it is.
Oh I know! You'll go hell if you do that.
SO YOU WILL TORTURE ME!

I'M NOT YOUR ANY OTHER DAUGHTER!
I'M NOT SMART!
I've used all the creativeness i have.
what more do you want.
i hate myself for who i am.
I must be a defect that God created.
Worst defect ever.













and i always have to cry alone in a corner... quietly...