Decisions.
Qusetions.
Answers.

That's what a thinker do, isn't it?
I read The Purpose Driven Life today.
And the message I got within is to return back to the Father.
I've been drifting away.
And now he's calling me back.

And through Daily Bread,
It told me about answers.
That people in desperate need of answers turn to anywhere else,
But God.
Well,
I don't turn anywhere because I have nowhere to turn to.
I just know that what it means to me,
Is to have patience and have faith in Him.

Faith and trust.
The things I lack in my life.
Whether it's God, or people.

It's going to be a struggle for me in this coming three weeks.
Juggling between work, relationships and rest.
I have three weeks to complete a pile of designings.
And in these three weeks,
I'll have to do some work for Bible camp.
I'll also have to continue to keep in touch with God.
And also, handle my family and my dating relationship well.
As for rest,
I think I'm going to start lacking it.
Either no sleep, or a few hours of sleep.

Then again..
I hate myself.
Hate myself for smiling when I want to cry.
Hate myself for lying to everyone.
Hate myself for making everyone worried about me.
Please don't worry about me.
I'll be fine..
I think...